Why do I keep losing again, and again, and again, in both cp as well as in life?

At this point I feel like some higher power simply toys with me, just to see how much effort I can put in despite knowing that I am going to fail, and laughs at the fact that I still don't quit, and that I still have hope that someday things might work out.

• 26 hours ago, # ^ | Okay. And thank you for taking out the time to write this :)

  • 26 hours ago, # ^ | No problem. Remember to stay positive always :)

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• 17 hours ago, # ^ | Is it? Among all the people I've known, I haven't seen it happening to anyone. People either achieve things without much effort, or don't aim high in the first place. Both these classes of people stay happy though. I belong to neither.

  • 6 hours ago, # ^ | "People either achieve things without much effort," They do work hard. You just don't know it. "or don't aim high in the first place." Why do you care about them? You'll always be happy in your comfort zone, but you'll never grow.

  • 6 hours ago, # ^ | Not everyone who seems happy is happy. Many people don’t like to share their problems with others. We may not be aware of the efforts that people put in. And we don’t know that those who ‘don’t aim high’ would be the very same people who would’ve put in a lot of efforts but eventually gave up due to little progress.And maybe they don’t want to let others know about their wasted efforts. Be positive and don’t give up. Happyyy New Yearrr!!!

• 16 hours ago, # ^ | The reason I do cp is to prove to myself that I am smarter than the people around me (in my university). I constantly feel a sense of inferiority to a certain set of people in my life. And I hate the feeling. This feeling will go only when I reach a certain milestone in cp. I know it might seem absurd to give this much importance to cp, but there is no other way I can quantify my smartness, and hence no other way to kill that sense of inferiority I feel every day. And I agree that cp has been a source of frustration to me, but at the same time it is difficult for me to find happiness in something else, especially by running away like this.

  • 7 hours ago, # ^ | try reading Carol dweck's book "Mindset".I think it can help you

    • 3 hours ago, # ^ | Sure, I'll try it out. Thanks.

• 16 hours ago, # ^ | Thank you so much. I hope so too.

• 20 hours ago, # ^ | Yep,there is always bad things happening in life,positive attitude is quite important. Whatever,good luck next year bro:) Everthing everthing is gonna be alright.

  • 18 hours ago, # ^ | Thanks bro. I am thinking of starting an entire new life. I am gonna fix my sleep schedule and wake up early and go for a run or will use a skipping rope. Eat Healthy and stop thinking about everything that had happened with me in these past years. Will try to be happy. And wishing you the same bro have a happy new year.

• 16 hours ago, # ^ | All the best man!

  • 16 hours ago, # ^ | Thanks bro and same to you.

    • 3 hours ago, # ^ | Thank you

• 16 hours ago, # ^ | Yep, I agree completely. And thanks a lot for the first line of your message.

• 3 hours ago, # ^ | Yes! Thank you so much for your kind words, genuinely.