The Insecurities of Being an Older Mom
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The Insecurities of Being an Older Mom
Midlife Motherhood
Photo by Alexey Shikov on Unsplash
Having a baby post 40 is challenging enough without people thinking you’re a grandma.
I’m at a deli counter in a grocery store when the woman slicing my roast beef asks: “Is that your baby? Or yours for the day?”
“I know,” I say, “she looks nothing like me.” To which she replies: “Oh, I guess that’s it…”, in a way that suggests that’s not it at all.
Only later does it dawn on me she was questioning whether I was the baby’s grandma.
Another time I’m pushing my daughter in a stroller and an actual grandma with a baby stops for a chat. She says our neighborhood is full of grandmothers caring for children. As I walk away, I wonder if she thinks I’m one of them.
When I tell friends these stories, they say I’m being hypersensitive. They say no one can guess my age, and who cares anyway? What matters is how I feel. Besides, it’s not like I’m the only older mom out there.
The average age of first-time moms has risen from 21 in 1970 in the US to 26. In other countries, like Greece, Luxembourg, Switzerland, Japan, Spain and Italy, it’s 30-plus.
Women are delaying parenthood to pursue careers — including A-list celebrities like Rachel Weisz at 48 and Laura Linney at 49 — or are worried about rising costs of childcare and housing. In England, the number of middle-aged women having children has nearly doubled over the past two decades.
While I may not be alone, I feel insecure about my age. Sometimes I don’t handle it very well.
Once we were at a doctor’s office when my daughter was maybe seven. The nurse looked at her and said: “So, who do you have with you today? Is this mom or grandma?”
My daughter laughed. I snapped back: “Why ask that? Wouldn’t it be better to assume I’m the mom? If you were wrong, I’d be flattered.”
She said she was sorry, but I felt like a jerk.
Why am I so touchy? And why do I keep apologizing for my age?
As my daughter has gotten older, people make fewer comments. And yet, I still feel the need to justify myself.
I’ll meet someone of my generation who tells me their kids are in college. I say my daughter’s age (13 now) but then almost always add that I got a late start. Sometimes I say how lucky they are to be so young and vibrant with grown kids. I’ll be old by the time my daughter is out of the house, I say.
(If at this point some of you readers are looking at the soft focus photo on my profile and thinking “She’s got to be kidding, she looks so young!”, I encourage you to write and share your thoughts.)
The real question is why do I feel the need to explain myself at all? I love being a mom at any age. I was lucky to conceive at 40 and give birth without problems.
For me there wouldn’t have been a better time to be a mom. If I’d had my daughter ten years earlier, I would have been consumed by work. I was a reporter in a newsroom. Not only would I have had less time for her, but far less patience.
By the time I had her, I was a freelancer working mostly from home. We could afford help, which meant I could still travel for work, and also have time to myself, and to enjoy nights out with my husband and friends.
I must stop apologizing for my life choice. The truth is that when someone implies I’m old, I should say nothing at all. The reality is I’m incredibly lucky.
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